crazy

how can you miss someone you've only spent a few hours with?

i dont know.

maybe it's because in those few moments you were with that person, you realized what you have been missing all your life. that, in that brief period of time, you became totally sold to the idea that another person completes you even if its against all the things you have learned. now, when that borrowed time is over and it dawns on you that you may never get another set of chances with that person; that you might, forever be, no more than friends, it numbs you.

and no matter how you try to pick up the pieces of your heart and bond them with the glue of temporary joys, it would never be the same heart that would fit the hollow in your chest. there's a gap surrounding it, where there was none before.

crazy, but you might have actually willed your heart to shrink and leave that space around, hoping that one day, that person would surrender to your love, and decide to fill the space between.

"when all else i gone
i would still be here
in a memory of things yet unseen
i'll remember all that we've never been"
-in another lifetime, gary valenciano