desiderata

i feel like lashing out right now but thanks to fatigue and the heavy feeling that a rice-based meal leaves, i do not. this is not to say that the chaos inside me has gone; it has somewhat subsided but there's still a probability of me punching err..a pillow perhaps, otherwise i will be typing with bloodied hands and amuse you with my typos.

now many people think we're a normal family - and they are correct, we are. i've just seen it proven today. oh you won't believe the drama. the drama! often i feel like living inside a boob tube being watched by crying, shouting throngs of people.

but i'm digressing, because really, what i am trying to do is find sense in all these, this clip in my life's video, aside from breaking into my outer stress-shield and putting my heart into a harried pumping action.

a rather cheesy (but nonetheless suitable) reply is that i am in this family to break the chain of hostility. another is maybe because i am here to even out the scorecard between good and evil among us. they both sound important answers but i'm not hearing a *ding*. i have no plans of getting into the peace corps.

then the best idea of all presented itself: i am learning. if life teaches by means of opposites, today's lesson is simple - there is power in silence.