no longer

i pushed the lock and the star key and laid my phone on the desk. "if only it was that easy to lock one's heart," i jokingly told myself. it's been one heck of an emotional ride for me these past few weeks, and as with everything, it has come to a point where i couldn't take it anymore.

i will no longer put up with you leading me on.
i will no longer be the first one to always call.
i will no longer text good mornings and die all day waiting for an answer ...or sigh at night when my good nights are not returned.
i will no longer ask how you are doing
...or wonder whether you've eaten or not
i will no longer expect you to text
... and when you do, i will take it as it is,
... after all, when you ask, where to buy dvds,
... it's not a secret code for i miss you, it's as platonic as it is!
i will no longer miss you from this moment on
... and if i ever do, i'll just work some more
i will no longer build dreams of you becoming a part of my life
...i'll stomp down whatever flame you've rekindled in my soul.

you see, i don't want to be the one fishing all the time, because i'm a good catch too. and for now, i've decided that without you, i'll get by just fine.